I've got a new look at Christmas since a year ago
When my only son died of whom I love so
Along with his sister, they got so sick one May
As long as I live I'll never forget that day
They both had a disease that any parent would dread
Our daughter survived, but now our son is dead
The first Christmas home without him was too hard to face
So we packed up and decided to go to another place
My daughter's summer vacation for her wasn't very long
For it took her that whole time to come back and be strong
So for us and our precious little girl
We decided to spend our Christmas in Disney World
For years we kept saying we'd all go there
We'd quickly put it off and would go elsewhere
There's plenty of time, we'll get there someday
How quickly time goes now my son has passed away
Filled with sorrow and deep regret
We decided it's time to give our girl the best Christmas yet
Even though we were all filled with so much grief
We knew this trip would give us all a little relief
Our vacation was so much fun,it was like no other
Still we missed our son, and the girls missed their brother
On Christmas Eve I walked through some beautiful Christmas light
I could feel my son's pressence with me that night
As I walked through I could see his smiling face
I knew that God was with me at this beautiful place
As I ended my walk I felt such tears of joy
For God allowed me to spend Christmas Eve with my boy
That time there with my son will be forever in my memory
For I learned there's more to Christmas than what the eye can see
Christmas has become more special and as I wipe away the tears
I just want to thank you Lord for sixteen wonderful years
Thank you for healing my daughter so I can see her play
Thank you for all the blessings you give us everyday
The Lord then spoke to me and wrapped me with His love
Don't worry your son's safe with me and watching you from above
The Lord gave me relief, only in Him will you find
Comfort when you need it the most, along with peace of mind
Here it is the holidays again but, not like the last
For I have the special memories from the ones of the past
Christmas was never about just gifts and a tree
It always will be of the love He gave you and me
The love of Jesus who's there when you call
Jesus is God's best Christmas gift of all
Carol Hoag
Dec. 1997